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Monday, November 29, 2004
Missing
"Don't you miss me a little?", God asked.
"No.", Joan answered with a pout. "Please go." "Do you miss yourself?", God asked Joan again, while she stood there in silence, "Because I do." That was a scene from the episode "Only Connect" of Joan of Arcadia. To anyone who hasn't watched any episode of Joan, I recommend you do. It's not just about God and religion. For me, it's more of a reminder that how we live our lives affects everyone who's around us. This scene hit me the most out of every meaningful scenes in this show. I do miss myself. I've been squandering my time in the pity pit for so long that I forgot to think. The people who've held me so dear probably misses me too. Everyone of us experiences death. A death of someone whose life meant everything to us, a death of a beloved pet, a death of a friendship, a death of romance, or a death of the spirit. Hopelessness. I have been missing for a long time. It's a tiresome place to be. If you are missing for so long, you become invisible. I don't want to be a passing shadow in life. I need someone to witness my life... and what I do matter to them. I want to be a reason of being. Only connect. -prescribed by-  @7:00 PM -0 came for therapy session-
Friday, November 12, 2004
He asked me out
"Want to catch a movie?" -r- asked as we spooned. He snuggled beside me as he slowly tried to wake me up. He just dropped off -little a- at school, who had a field trip to Sha Tin, and won't be home till the afternoon. That meant extra time with -r- without any interruptions, if you saddled with 6-yr-olds know what I mean. I went to bed last night knowing that I'd be stuck in the apartment for the rest of the week. Asking me out in the spur of the moment definitely brought a thrill to me.
I smiled as I thought of the different things we could do while the little one was away. Besides, -r- had been gone too long on his China trip... pheromones were definitely in the air. After a while, I wrenched my body from the bed and asked -r- to take me out for a lunch date. Movie plans were scrapped... there were other things calling out to me. Namely, winter fashion. Winter is a new experience for me. Scarves, gloves, ponchos.... yum. But I digress. This burst of spontaneity just made me fall in love with -r- all over again. It's been too long. Our last date must have been some time around last year when Matrix Revolutions was released. Marriage and parenthood has its pros but romance usually takes a backseat. We've been focusing on so many things other than us that it was so refreshing to see his smile and know that he was with me, right there, and not miles away, thinking of clients and media events. We had Thai food for lunch... we laughed whenever my Thai-grilled chicken escaped my chopsticks... we exchanged smiles across the table... we bought Mocha Frappuccinos afterwards to cool off our tongues from the Brisket Beef in Curry. We kissed while going down the escalator. Then he whispered, "You make me so happy." He took my hand and, to further show his devotion, he escorted me to one of my favorite places in the world... Esprit. All in all, it was the perfect date. I didn't buy anything. I had everything I needed right there at that moment. It was a perfect date... because I made him happy. |
 
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